Hi. As I write this, it’s another cloudy, dreary day in Wisconsin and I’m munching away on a fresh Golden Delicious apple. Because even though I already have Christmas on the brain, fall foods/treats/desserts are still where it’s at.
Here’s the thing. I think it’s safe to say that however many months later, life is so far from back to “normal” like we thought it might be. And, that has been a difficult reality to accept. Even more so now than in the early days of ‘rona. I’ll openly admit that I’m struggling. Struggling to find a routine or any sort of normalcy amidst the crazy. I’m tired. Exhausted. Stressed. Generally pissed off (ha, but it’s true!). And, some of those feelings are only going to get worse as we head into the winter months. A pandemic plus S.A.D. doesn’t seem like a great combination.
2020 in a nutshell! This was a test picture from our DIY Christmas card photo shoot. Finn wasn’t cooperating, I was annoyed, and Ryan was trying to make me laugh through it all. Mission accomplished because now I laugh-cry every time I look at this picture.
So, I’m trying to change the one thing I have control over – my perspective.
I strive to reach a point where I can long for what was but be okay with what is.
Listen, I get that my troubles pale in comparison to other issues that currently are at the forefront of our minds and hearts. I’m ridiculously privileged in the life I have and continue to lead even in these weird times. But, I am human! I miss my family. I’m tired of second-guessing every single move I make. Don’t even get me started on the political and social unrest in our country. It’s a lot to process. No matter who you are.
I had no idea where I was going with this when I sat down at the computer and started writing, so I hope this makes some sort of sense. If not, that’s fine, too. My space, my words.
P.S. Tomorrow is the big day – ELECTION DAY! Which means it’s the last opportunity to get to the polls and cast your vote. Do your part, and make your voice heard. The future of our country depends on it!