There’s been a lot on my mind the last couple weeks, so I thought it high time to sit down and share.
On Sunday, March 10 my Grandma Bette passed away. The second death in our family in three months, my second loss of a grandparent. My grandma was 95, only four days away from turning 96 on March 14. So, sure – she lived a long life; however, in some ways that has made her death even harder. She was here for so long that it’s hard to imagine a life without her in it.
My grandma was one of my very favorite people. I was lucky to have her close by my entire life, which allowed me to spend a ridiculous amount of time with her. It makes me laugh now that it was a big treat to sleepover at grandma’s apartment because that meant sleeping on an air mattress and getting to eat a frozen pizza and her infamous mozzarella cheesy bread for dinner. She made sure to teach me how to make her Spanish rice before I left for college – one of my absolute favorite meals – and I also was fortunate to spend an entire summer with her doing odd jobs around her apartment, taking her to the store, and generally just spending time together. Like most 20-year-olds, I didn’t realize how much I’d appreciate that time as I do now.
I’m forever grateful to Ryan for being the husband he is by insisting we make the two and a half hour drive down late Friday night to be close by. Those final days and moments with my family were both incredibly hard but also a blessing. My grandma wasn’t overly responsive, but the gentle attempts to squeeze my hand and the small smile she gave Ryan when he told her he would always take care of me reassured me that she could hear us.
While it doesn’t 100% feel like it right now, I know that my grandma is still around watching over me in some way. I will forever miss her and hope that I can make her proud. Her and my grandpa were known to have at it with each other (in a joking manner, of course), so for now I take comfort knowing that they’re somewhere picking up right where they left off.
And, on that note I’m a mess so let’s jump right into some lighter content! Here’s a few links and reads that I’ve enjoyed recently:
// I’m still obsessed with this little girl dancing – THOSE FACES! She’s so into it, and I love it. I watch this video anytime I need to smile (so lately, a lot).
// The perfect anytime, anywhere eye shadow palette.
// Did you know that Target released a new intimates line? Let me tell you, I’m shook. For only $14.99, this bra might be the best I’ve ever worn.
// We made this honey mustard chicken bake last weekend, and it was delicious!
// Don’t forget to take a peek into my current Amazon shopping cart. 😉
Depending on how the weekend goes – my grandma’s service is Friday – I may or may not be around here Monday. So, I’ll just sign off and say I’ll see you sometime next week. Hope everyone has a good one!